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IMHO stalking can be avoided..!

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Stalking

I used to be very much concerned till few years back when I was stalked by few people at different timing, now I don’t give a damn.

IMHO stalking can be avoided, yes. How? Read what I think :)

While going for the transfusion on Monday I saw a school van with a single girl sitting on the edge of the bench, as the girl smiled I saw a bike stalking van, in my opinion if girl doesn’t smile then they would definitely change their way. Smile give them courage to go further.

I was stalked by a man while on walk in a garden, he tried to follow me everywhere, as the garden was big and kind of maze, I dodged him and changed the way, he couldn’t trace me then.. I guess that was the smart trick I used.

This wasn’t first time for me, an year ago while I was coming back with mom, a guy stalked me till my area.., changed the way when he saw ‘no lift’ board from me :)

Another incident where I really got scared was, when I went for radio interview all alone, an uncle started stalking me, I told cab driver to drop me at the exact point and doesn’t leave me on road, he couldn’t understand why I said that, upon paying fare to him I told him a car was stalking us, he got angry.., he told me that I should have tell him this before… so that he could have teach him a lesson. Anyways, because of getting on exact point by taking long route made him clear that he have to change his way and am not that type of girl :)

There are certain times I saw car stopping at bus stops where a girl is standing alone or with some other girls.., like God forbid those girls were really waiting for them.., if they see no response they rush their car to another point.

I wonder when they will be decent human beings? I feel sorry for girls who daily have to face such harassment, I feel sorry for girls who smile at such losers. This is from where they get enough courage to carry on their evil works.

May Allah be always with us! and give hidayat to the lost ones :)

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کوئی ایسا۔۔

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Alone..

کبھی کبھی آپ کی زندگی میں ایسے واقعہ ہوتے ہیں جن کا ذکر آپ کسی سے نہیں کر پاتے۔۔ آپ کا دل چاہتا ہے کہ کوئی ایسا ہو جس سے میں سب کہ سکوں۔۔ پر ممکن نہیں ہوتا۔۔

کبھی دل چاہتا ہے کوئی ہو جو صرف آپکا ہو۔۔ جو آپ کو سنے، سمجھے، پر آپ کو عجیب نہ جانے ۔۔ آپ سے تنگ نہ آئے، آپ کا مذاق نہ اڑائے۔۔

لاکھوں لوگوں کے ہوتے ہوئے آپ خود کو تنہا سمجھے۔۔ تب دل شدت سے چاہتا ہے کہ ہاں۔۔ یہ وقت ہے جب اکیلا نہیں رہنا۔۔

سلمان کے انتقال کے بعد سے بہت سی ایسی باتیں ہیں جو میں گھر میں کسی سے شیئر نہیں کر سکتی۔۔ کروں گی تو والدہ کو دکھھ ہوگا، وہ روئے گی۔۔ اور یہی سوچ کر چپ کرجاتی ہوں۔۔

پر اب لگتا ہے برداشت سے باہر ہے۔۔ کچھ دن سے ایسے دوست کی خواہش ہے جو سب سنے پر کسی سے کچھ نہ کہے۔۔

دعائوں کی طلبگار۔۔

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Maa…!

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Mom and Daughter

Mom and Daughter

Mothers are most of the kids best friend, I have a special bond with my mom, a very special bond…, my mom shares almost everything with me and I share everything with her, even our dark secrets are shared with each other.

If I get ill my mom doesn’t sleep all night, that was the time when I was use to think if God forbid anything happens to mom will I be able to stay awake all night? And I did achieve that place, we can never return the love, care our parents showed for us, but still we can try.

Since few months mom having diarrhea problem, whenever she is restless I stay awake all night and Alhamdulillah I doesn’t even feel tiredness, mom is bit shocked that how I manage to stay awake but I have told her ‘just like you stay awake for me’ :)

Please remember my mom in your prayers, I have lost enough of my loved ones, can’t bear any other lose!

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Noor e Khuda…!

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I don’t remember at what age I developed likeness for sad/slow songs but it was very young age, many of my friends used to make fun of me when I used to tell them I love to listen to Jagjit Sindh, Mehdi Hasan, slow and sad songs etc.

But nothing could change my love for them :) and today my song list only contains LOTS of slow/sad songs :) , when I miss Salman or dad a lot I listen to them hours and hours…, few days ago I heard Janay nahi de gen tujhe from movie 3 idiots, it badly reminded me of days when Salman was in hospital, I was trying every single thing to make him come back to life…, but real life is way different than movie :)

Last night I heard Noor e Khuda from movie My Name is Khan, it’s a wonderful track too.., I questioned Allah a lot of them when Salman was hospitalized, I wanted HIM to do some miracle.., I even said to many friends that doctors said that after 24 hours they will remove ventilator but Allah just need a second to make him come back to life… and am sure HE will do it…

I ain’t a lady of weak faith/belief, I have STRONG faith on Allah but I was very much upset when I heard that 1 second which I was waiting for didn’t come ever and a news came that Salman is no more with us…

I know Salman that you are in  heavens and must be enjoying but Salman… your panda miss you a lot :(

 

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Happy Birthday Salman

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Dear Salman,

Friends, family everyone ask me to pray for you instead of crying and I agree to them.., I really agree to them, though you know Salman its not easy.. but since you are gone I am keeping me and mom busy.. so that we don’t cry.. and pray more for you.

Nothing can take away that pain, no one can replace you, nothing can change the reality.. no one can give you back to us now!

If you would have been here today.. we would have celebrated your 25th birthday with pizza, your favorite dishes, games, movies, what not? anything and everything you liked… but am sure.. you will be in heavens with your 70 virgins celebrating in the MOST BEAUTIFUL way we can even imagine :) , Allah must have keep you in HIS beloved people.

I didn’t want to cry.. I didn’t by GOD!, but this email just made me..

The following is an e-mail from the past, composed on Saturday, June 24, 2006, and sent via FutureMe.org
Dear Me,
Happy Birthday to Me!

i hope i am still alive to read this mail,
i should have done atleast these few things:
i must have bought the dual monitors
wireless networking hogayee? and what about that wireless keyboard and mouse?
have i learned oracle yet?
did i crossed the 50k per month?
hmm.. and what about my car :sigh:

koi larki pasand ayee?
heh kia main bara hogaya?

chal filhaal keliye kafi hay

I don’t know why and when you wrote this email but you wanted to live to see this coming in your way…, but here I tell you Salman, that from the list of your wishes you did achieved some, like dual monitors :) how badly you wanted them.. and I still remember the smile I saw on your face when I plugged both of your monitors :) like a kid got a balloon for the first time :)

Wireless keyboard and mouse, remember you asked Fahad bhai to get it for you? though both couldn’t last long for much time but yes.. you loved them :)

50k? bhai.. you crossed 80k per month :) we can’t forget how much you did for us, for family.. how can you :) ? but am sure you would have.. because you were like that.. did and forgot..

There were millions of things you did in so little time and age.., but you gained your place and name in people’s heart.., family can’t forget you.. but am sure friends can’t too!

Happy Birthday once again :)

We love you and we miss you!

Enjoy the beauties of heaven :) and don’t forget us!

Your weird and annoying sister
-Ayesha

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