Category Archives: Me, Myself & I

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زندگی!!۔

کبھی کبھی زندگی میں ایسے موڑ آتے ہیں کہ آپ حیران پریشان بس اسی بارے میں سوچتے رہتے ہو، پر اس بارے میں بات نہیں کرنا چاہتے، بلکل ایسا ہی ابھی میرے ساتھ ہورہا ہے، دل میں کچھ ہے ذہن میں کچھ ہے۔۔ اور زبان ایک ہی بات کرتی ہے، یا اللہ تو مدد کر۔۔ خیر تھوڑا سا اپنے آپ کو پرسکون کرنے کے لئے کچھ اشعار پڑھے تھے وہ پوسٹ کر رہی ہوں۔۔ دعائوں میں یاد رکھنے کی کوشش کیجیے گا پلیز۔۔

مجھے ایسا لطف عطا کیا جو نہ ہجر تھا نہ وصال تھا
میرے موسموں کے مزاج داں تجھے میرا کتنا خیال تھا
کبھی موسموں کے سراب میں کبھی پام و در کے عزاب میں
وہاں عمر میں نے گزار دی جہاں سانس لینا محال تھا۔
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آسان تو نہیں اپنی ہستی سے گزر جانا
اترا جو سمندر میں دریا تو بہت رویا
جو شخص نہ رویا تھا تپتی راہوں میں
دیوار کے سائے میں بیٹھا تو بہت رویا

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ab kuch roman urdu mein hain jis ko mujhey urdu mein transfer kerna ka koi dil nahi hai, so please bear it.
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Faislay ki raat hai aur lab khamosh hain
aisa bhi kia howa hai keh sab khamosh hain

sar-bazm kion bhar ayein meri ankhain
main kia kahon ke saray hi sabab khamosh hain

apni safai main tu sabhi ney kuch na kuch kaha
baat mujh per ayei hay tu sab khamosh hain

lazim tu nahi honton hi say har baat kahi jaye
ankhon main meri jhank lo, woh kab khamosh hain?

main nay suna tha gulshan mein bahar ayei hay
phool, chirya, fizayein kion ab khamosh hain?
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kaha sathi koi dukh dard ka tayar karna hay
jawab aya yeh darya akeley par karna hay

kaha rasta baksha hay na hamwar kion mujh ko
jawab aya tujhey har rasta hamwar karna hay
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Last but not the least..

TuuTe huye dilo.n kii duaa mere saath hai
duniyaa terii taraf hai Khudaa mere saath hai

aaj ke daur me.n ai dost ye ma.nzar kyuu.N hai
zaKhm har sar pe har ik haath me.n patthar kyuu.N hai

jab haqiiqat hai ke har zarre me.n tuu rahataa hai
phir zamii.n par kahii.n masjid kahii.n ma.ndir kyuu.N hai

apanaa a.njaam to maaluum hai sab ko phir bhii
apanii nazaro.n me.n har insaan sika.ndar kyuu.N hai

zindagii jiine ke qaabil hii nahii.n ab “Faakir”
varnaa har aa.Nkh me.n ashko.n kaa sama.ndar kyuu.N hai

دعائوں کی طلبگار
اللہ نگہبان
عائشہ۔

Me n my studies..!

Asalaam o Alaikum All

Hmmmm Sister Asma made me open secrets and secrets by tagging me… Well like Sister Asma said in Tagging Post that I am kiddo, and I must be in matric.. So there’s no doubt many people must be thinking same… because I said I was in class 5th in 2000 so I must be a matriculate in 2005, but am done with 1st year (Inter) exams and studying for 2nd year…so many would be like What? Well the story is “ajeeb o ghareeb” the school where I had to repeat a class will allow jumping classes? It’s a big No No!!

So its like my schooling as always been an issue, I had to change 2 schools before my real school, first 2 were near our house and my mother was thinking just to give me a base so that I can move easily afterwards, but she was wrong : (, and I faced trouble.. but I adjusted well in both schools and in the last I was a best student, on the base of my good grades they gave me admission, I was in Safiyiah Girls High School (Near City Court, Karachi), every year I was securing position from 1st to 3rd then came the year 1999 and we were supposed to leave for India, it was the time when I was about to give my class 5th exams, but the treatment was important so we left for India and came back after 3 months, new batch was there, and my fellow classmates were in class 6th, we tried hard to get admission but as 5th is like base of secondary education so they didn’t took me and gave me admission in 5th, that was the time when I got totally fed-up with studies, how I studied 5th then 6th then 7th I don’t know, I didn’t secure any grade I took 5th position in class 5th & 6th and I was careless about everything and then in class 7th begging I skipped school for more than 1 month, teachers were calling me and I was like NO MORE STUDIES!!! The lose of one year made me burst out… a0nd I skipped 7th and 8th… then Salman’s tutor asked me to study 8th’s mathematics at home so I can study matric easily after that, I studied for 2 or 3 months then I goes like “no no no no no more studies!!!”, then wasting one whole year my family started motivating me (by giving LOTS of taunts like “you will be called illiterate”, “humey kia, tumhara future hai”) so finally I decided to study for 9th in last three months before exams and how it went just don’t ask, I was sure that I will get 2 or 3 “F”, and I told everyone if I get 1, 2 or any F then I wont study more.. and then came my result which told me that Ayesha you have been the most na-laiq girl on this earth, I got “C” and was told my family that I better study for Matric now… I studied for matric and got “C” again and this year I gave 1st year (Inter) exams and unlike 9th & 10th they went MashaAllah very great! And now expecting “B” : D heh!, well the repeat of 5th was to make my base it didn’t made my base but it took me away from studies, it took away my grades : ( it made me go lower not higher.. khair what ever happens, happens for a reason, right? So lets not mourn over the past and lets hope and work for present & future : ), Be Positive

Unlike others I haven’t enjoyed my school time, nor college’s, because I don’t go daily, its like once in a blue moon I go to college : p, am not interested to waste time going because teachers doesn’t take classes as they should (it’s a government college) and the environment there is “cheapest” so if anyone would ask anytime about my school or college it would be like “Better don’t ask”, khair I was sent to get education and my parents think that I have studied well even going through different troubles and phrases..

Best thing I love about me or my school or my college is that I have always secured best student place and obedient student place! And my teachers have always given me a place in their heart , even today I would love to go and meet my teachers specially my school teachers! And they love me a lot ! I do visit them twice or thrice every year : )! And they love the thing most about me is that I haven’t stopped studying : )! I have great influence of my teachers! They are sooo soooo ShweeeT!!!! I will always admire them !

I think this is enough : p

Take Cares, Allah Nigh-e-baan!

HeeeeeeHaaa Am tagged ;p

TaGGeD!

Okay, am tagged by Sister Asma, Thanks a lot sister : )

5 years ago:
Hmmz, I have to ask my mom and brother about 2000 ;p because I wasn’t sure that I was in school or not, then I get to know I was and you guys are forcing me to shred tears by remembering those days, because I was forced to study 5th class again (No! I wasn’t a nalaiq student, just because I went to India for the treatment when it was my 5th class examination, so they asked me to repeat because I didn’t give exams), and I hated it too much because I had always secure good position & grades but then also : (, and I got admission on my good grades base. Khair.., so I was in school they were not those best days because I wasn’t satisfied and I was used to take pangay from the so called seniors (They were my class-mates but kismet made them seniors), and at the same moment those were the golden days for my family!! Hammad was 1 year old and it was fun to play with him!! I was use to give him oil massage which my mother told me that its good for bones, and now because of that he is MashaAllah very strong ;p That was me and my memories of 2000

1 Year ago:
Hmmmz, means 2004 it was most depressing time for me and family, Salman fell ill too badly that he was admitted to the hospital for the first time in life and doctors were not telling us anything :s I still remember that morning when we took him to Fatimid when he wasn’t in his senses and it was Fajar time..

5 songs I know all the words to:
There’s a list of songs which I like, but there’s only few songs which I know words by words, but mostly I love singing with the song when Jet-Audio is playing.
As Long As You Love Me – BSB, Main Ne Dil Se Kaha – ROG, Dharak Dharak – Bunty aur Babli, Sali To Mani Nahi – Shehzad Roy, Mohabbatein Lutaaunga – Abhijeet Sawant

5 Snacks I enjoy:
There’s a longgggggggg list of snacks I love (Okay Ayesha its about Snacks they are not asking about all types of food hehehe) but then also there is a list, long na sahi per hai :d
French Fries all the time!!, Tea!, Bunkababs!, Channa Chaat (Choolay), Fruit Chaat

5 Things I’d do with $100 million dollars:
Hmmmz, if I ever ever ever get them I will do the things given below:
I will buy a bungalow (which my mom will choose, its her wish that I want to full-fill), Will perform Umrah and Hajj with Salman n mom (if Allah invited us!!), Hmmm I will go for Pakistan Tour with Salman n mom ;)!, Donate a big amount for the betterment of Fatimid, Thalassemia research & to needy people, Will do lots of shopping for family!!!

5 places I would run away to:
To my maaaaa’s lap, to the bed!, to Umair bhai, All over the Pakistan!, hmmm Net!! 😀

5 things I would never wear:
See-through dresses (transparent ones), Sleeve-less shirts, Skin-tight clothes, Chamkeeley colors (what you call them in English ;P? Bright colors?) I have so far found only 4 things ;

5 favorite TV shows:
Ana – Geo, Dhuwaan – PTV, Tanhayaan – PTV, Aagan Teera – PTV, Zaib-un-Nissa – PTV

5 greatest joys:
Mom’s happiness!, Salman’s happiness n success, everything related to Umair bhai!!, My family & when my prayers are answered! (Am MashaAllah blessed that none of my Prayer hasn’t been denied by Allah!! 😀 love you Allah!) there are many like Helping my friends, Sharing my things with anyone, Caring about someone Or when anyone cares about me (it makes me feel special!) 😛 Net, Hammad, and many more!

5 favorite toys:
Cell phone (whether its mine or anyone’s, specially dad’s n Salman I love them ;p), 2 teddy bears (completely owned by Salman :(), Jet-Audio!, Photoshop!!!, mIRC!!!

5 People I’m Tagging:
I don’t know too many people on this Blog Earth, but still I would love to tag:
Danial, Saadat, Humaira, Ghazal Pirzada, Gul-e-Geti

Two day’s activities ;p

Finally I got something to write about :p

Its been raining from 2 days.., humarey area mein expected months mein barish nahi howi, and its been 2 days we got to see rain for the first time in 2005 :p, interesting, nahi?

Well yesterday I woke up feeling that fan is off :\ and afterwards I get to know that there is no electricity, having a dad who works in KESC is like having “never going electricity” but sometimes we are under zulm too ;P

And after 2 hours of musalsal rain and there comes the electricity : D, we were like it wont come soon, but my dad was like no they switch off the feeder (something like that) and they will switch On it when the rain will stop.. And that is what happened : )

Meanwhile we did chitchat, masti mazak with Hammad (my nephew) [he was wearing shorts n sleeve-less shirt, I said Hammad yaar yeh to set hai.. na hi garmi lagey aur rain bhi enjoy kerlen is dress mein, humey bhi dila do, he said Jama (Jama Cloth Market) se milte hain, app ke size ke bhi mil jayen gen, I said yaar sleeve-less to bohut achi hai, Salman asked Ayesha what would you this shorts in your normal language? I said hmmm, how about Ghutna-less or knee-less ;P, Hammad made ajeeb ajeeb sey moun and said am going :\, heh it was fun teasing him!], and breakfast..
I thought waking up early (I wasn’t feeling well and didn’t had a good sleep too) will make me frustrated all the day, but Thanks Allah it didn’t, and it went too cool : ), after 12:30, I helped mom for lunch, after praying Zohar I came on net, it was too boring day.. did nothing and yawned all the time :p, then around 5:30 prayed Asar and went to doctor for medicine, came back offer Maghrib, did lunch (Am late lateef, never mind ; )) took my medicine and around 9:30 I was jhoooling in my pc chair with my eyes close.. and Salman said “are ya sleepy too?” I said “yeah, are you too?” he said “yes” and then there we go!! Switched off AC (Air-condition), PCS, lights and goes to sleep (That was real earlier) hmmmm slept all night (interesting :p) and woke up at 11:00 (woh bhi mom ki wajah se, she was yelling :p) but as it was my yesterday’s sleep + my medicine asaar so I woke up at 11:30 :p, did breakfast, watched TV, looked at the weather (as it was changing to clear sky TO dusty sky, dust everywhere), just returned back to sofa and there comes the rain again!! YaY!! Enjoyed!!!!

Nothing else to tell about rain.. except I loved rain and the weather, but didn’t like the keechar :\, hey I watched two new Indian films after a very long time, one was No Entry, it was full of comedy! Except few songs or scenes the film was awesome!! Second was Dil ne jissey apna kaha, it was good too!! But No Entry is awesome!!, let me tell you few lines from the film

Anil Kapoor say Be Positive in every thing he is doing or going to do, one day his colleague asked what the story with Be positive, he said what? Its my blood group LOL ;p

Salman Khan was about to slip from a hill and the same colleague went to him and incidentally goes down with him, as they were hanging Salman asked him “why the hell you came here?” he said “to help you Prem jee (Salman Khan), Salman replied “you are Sunny (colleague’s name) not Sunny Deol”

You won’t love the lines now, but after watching film you will love it!!

Its enough for today ;P
Take Cares, Allah Hafiz All!
-Ayesha

Yaad Ayegen Yeh Pal..

Hum Rahen Ya Na Rahen Kal
Kal…Yaad Ayegen Yeh Pal..
Pal..Yeh Hai Pyar Ke Pal
Chal..Aa Mere Sang Chal

Chal..Sochen Kia?
Choti Si.. Hai Zindagi
Kal Miljayen, To Hogi Khushnaseebi

Hum Rahen Ya Na Rahen Kal
Kal…Yaad Ayegen Yeh Pal..

Hum Rahen Ya Na Rahen Kal
Kal…Yaad Ayegen Yeh Pal..

Chal.. Sochen Kia?
Choti Si.. Hai Zindagi
Kal Miljayen..To Hogi Khushnaseebi

Hum Rahen Ya Na Rahen Kal
Kal…Yaad Ayegen Yeh Pal..

Anay Wali Subah Janey
Hogi Kitni Suhani
Chamkay Gen Aisey
Yeh Sari Duniya
Hogi apni deewani

Hum Rahen Ya Na Rahen Kal
Kal…Yaad Ayegen Yeh Pal..

Chal.. Sochen Kia?
Choti Si.. Hai Zindagi
Kal Miljayen, To Hogi Khushnaseebi

-Song: Yaad Ayenge Yeh Pal
-By: Indian Idol

-I don’t know what is wrong with me : (, am being laziest than anyone can be.. I don’t what is the thing which is making me fed-up and down that I can’t type blog : (, when ever Salman ask something I reply him after 2 mints, he is pissed off on me, and I cant figure out the problem of my frustration and all, I am being lazy on PC, on chat, on my work, on everything : (

Please pray for me friends : (

Take Cares, Allah Hafiz!
-Ayesha (The most laziest gal on earth)