Phir kuch likhne ka dil nahi…

Mein mazhrat khuwaah hon ke ajj kal mere pass kuch bhi nahi hai likhne ko.. isiliye ajj kal Shair-o-Shairi share kerne ka dil kar raha hai.. ajj kuch shair aur ghazalain parhi hain, unhi ko share ker rahi hon…

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Gam mujhe hasarat mujhe vahashat mujhe saudaa mujhe
ek dil deke Khudaa ne de diyaa kyaa kyaa mujhe

hai husuul-e-aarazuu kaa raaz tark-e-aarazuu
mai.n ne duniyaaa chho.D dii to mil ga_ii duniyaa mujhe

[husuul-e-aarazuu=the completion/fulfilment of desire]
[tark-e-aarazuu=to discard desire]
Seemab Akbarabadi
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hujuum-e-Gam me.n mere saath chal sako to chalo
qadam qadam pe hai mushkil sambhal sako to chalo

hamaare biich hai rasm-o-rivaaj kii diivaar
tum us ko to.D ke aage nikal sako to chalo

ye raah-e-ishq nahii.n aag kaa samandar hai
lapakatii mauj me.n gar tum sambhal sako to chalo

tumhaarii kashti-e-ulfat hai Gam ke tuufaa.N me.n
merii tarah ruKh-e-tuufaa.N badal sako to chalo
–Unknown
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badalaa na apane aap ko jo the vahii rahe
milate rahe sabhii se magar ajanabii rahe

duniyaa na jiit paao to haaro na Khud ko tum
Tho.Dii bahut to zahan me.n naaraazagii rahe

apanii tarah sabhii ko kisii kii talaash thii
ham jisake bhii qariib rahe duur hii rahe

guzaro jo baaG se to duaa maa.Ngate chalo
jisame.n khile hai.n phuul vo Daalii harii rahe
–Nida Fazli
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Gam kii baarish ne bhii tere naqsh ko dhoyaa nahii.n
tuune mujh ko kho diyaa mai.n ne tujhe khoyaa nahii.n

[naqsh = mark]

niind kaa halkaa gulaabii-saa Khumaar aa.Nkho.n me.n thaa
yuu.N lagaa jaise vo shab ko der tak soyaa nahii.n

[Khumaar = intoxication]

har taraf diivaar-o-dar aur un me.n aa.Nkho.n kaa hujuum
kah sake jo dil kii haalat vo lab-e-goyaa nahii.n

[hujuum = crowd; lab-e-goyaa = lips that can speak]

jurm aadam ne kiyaa aur nasl-e-aadam ko sazaa
kaaTataa huu.N zindagii bhar mai.n ne jo boyaa nahii.n

[aadam = Adam; nasl-e-aadam = mankind]

jaanataa huu.N ek aise shaKhs ko mai.n bhii ‘Munir’
Gam se patthar ho gayaa lekin kabhii royaa nahii.n

[shaKhs = person]
–Munir Niazi
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زندگی!!۔

کبھی کبھی زندگی میں ایسے موڑ آتے ہیں کہ آپ حیران پریشان بس اسی بارے میں سوچتے رہتے ہو، پر اس بارے میں بات نہیں کرنا چاہتے، بلکل ایسا ہی ابھی میرے ساتھ ہورہا ہے، دل میں کچھ ہے ذہن میں کچھ ہے۔۔ اور زبان ایک ہی بات کرتی ہے، یا اللہ تو مدد کر۔۔ خیر تھوڑا سا اپنے آپ کو پرسکون کرنے کے لئے کچھ اشعار پڑھے تھے وہ پوسٹ کر رہی ہوں۔۔ دعائوں میں یاد رکھنے کی کوشش کیجیے گا پلیز۔۔

مجھے ایسا لطف عطا کیا جو نہ ہجر تھا نہ وصال تھا
میرے موسموں کے مزاج داں تجھے میرا کتنا خیال تھا
کبھی موسموں کے سراب میں کبھی پام و در کے عزاب میں
وہاں عمر میں نے گزار دی جہاں سانس لینا محال تھا۔
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آسان تو نہیں اپنی ہستی سے گزر جانا
اترا جو سمندر میں دریا تو بہت رویا
جو شخص نہ رویا تھا تپتی راہوں میں
دیوار کے سائے میں بیٹھا تو بہت رویا

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ab kuch roman urdu mein hain jis ko mujhey urdu mein transfer kerna ka koi dil nahi hai, so please bear it.
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Faislay ki raat hai aur lab khamosh hain
aisa bhi kia howa hai keh sab khamosh hain

sar-bazm kion bhar ayein meri ankhain
main kia kahon ke saray hi sabab khamosh hain

apni safai main tu sabhi ney kuch na kuch kaha
baat mujh per ayei hay tu sab khamosh hain

lazim tu nahi honton hi say har baat kahi jaye
ankhon main meri jhank lo, woh kab khamosh hain?

main nay suna tha gulshan mein bahar ayei hay
phool, chirya, fizayein kion ab khamosh hain?
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kaha sathi koi dukh dard ka tayar karna hay
jawab aya yeh darya akeley par karna hay

kaha rasta baksha hay na hamwar kion mujh ko
jawab aya tujhey har rasta hamwar karna hay
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Last but not the least..

TuuTe huye dilo.n kii duaa mere saath hai
duniyaa terii taraf hai Khudaa mere saath hai

aaj ke daur me.n ai dost ye ma.nzar kyuu.N hai
zaKhm har sar pe har ik haath me.n patthar kyuu.N hai

jab haqiiqat hai ke har zarre me.n tuu rahataa hai
phir zamii.n par kahii.n masjid kahii.n ma.ndir kyuu.N hai

apanaa a.njaam to maaluum hai sab ko phir bhii
apanii nazaro.n me.n har insaan sika.ndar kyuu.N hai

zindagii jiine ke qaabil hii nahii.n ab “Faakir”
varnaa har aa.Nkh me.n ashko.n kaa sama.ndar kyuu.N hai

دعائوں کی طلبگار
اللہ نگہبان
عائشہ۔

Virtues of Sha’baan

Asalaam o Alaikum all!

As everyone knows that tomorrow is 15th Sha’baan, the day when Allah will write all about our next year… the night when Allah comes to a very nearer point for human beings and calls if we want anything, if we want anything to be changed in our fate, if we want forgiveness, it’s the night when we will ask and Allah will grant us (InshaAllah!)! I got this mail from Umair bhai few days ago, I want to share it with everyone here : )

Huzoor sallalahu alaihi wa salam said, Shaban is my month, Ramadhan is Allah’s month and those who prepare well in sha’baan his ramadhan will be full of blessings and be more beneficial. There are certain virtues of this month, it is also called shahr-ut-tawbah; acceptance of repentance in this month, blessings are increased for muslims in this month and this is why one should increase his/her ibadah in this month.

The buzurg have said that those who prepare well in this month will attain easily the blessings of Ramadhan, this is why Holy Prophet sallallahu alaihi wa salam fasted the most in this month after Ramadhan. The unique thing about this month is that there is one night on the 15th of sha’ban, the night between the 14th and 15th day. Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala has called that night ‘laylatul mubaraka’ barkat waali raat. The greatest night after layla-ul-qadr is shab-e-baraat, and Hadhrat Atta bin Yassaar RA reported, Rasulullah Sallallahu alaihi wa salam said that when this night of 15th sha’baan arrives, Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala tells the angel of death those who will pass away i.e. form one shaban to next. Those who are to pass away are told, those who will get rizq etc all these are mentioned.

Some people think that if this is told now, then what about what has already been written on loh-e-mahfooz? The difference is that Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala Knows everything before all, the meaning of this is that the angel of death is told whose souls are to be taken out from one sha’baan to the next. Huzoor sallallahu alaihi wa salam has said that when the 15th of sha’baan passes, certain people pass it in transgression, so much so that their names are added to the list of those to die that year. In the same way, the peoples rizq is told. Just as the government makes a 5 year budget or an annual budget, and when this is accepted during the year it is released through certain projects. In the same way a budget of our entire life has been made, from birth till death our life has been allocated on the loh-e-mahfooz. Then they are released every year on the 15th shabaan, it has already been allocated and it is released every year. So why has this night been mentioned, everything has already been allocated, it is just being relased, so why mention this?
Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala says ‘everything has been allocated and it is released annually on the 15th night of sha’baan, now also know this that I am the owner (Malik) of the loh-e-mahfooz. If someone sits with a sincere heart and cries for forgiveness then what is written, I can delete and add to it. If this was not the meaning, then this night would not have been disclosed.

Huzoor sallallahu alaihi wa salam has said there are two things which can change destiny, one is dua and other is sadqah. So the point to note is that if these decisions were not to be changed, then neither these nights would be made nor told to us. Laylat-ul-qadr was made and told that it is hidden within five nights and with shab’aan we are told the night, laylat-ul-qadr is of higher status, this is a degree lower and it is clearly disclosed so that however much obedience one wishes to do they can on this night. Laylat-ul-qadr is of higher status, first it was hidden within the entire month, Aqa sallallahu alaihi wa salam sat itekaf for the entire month of Ramadhan searching for the night of Power to tell his ummah. So then Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala removed the first 10 days and told that you will find that night in the last 20 nights of Ramadhan. So then Aqa sallallahu alaihi wa salam sat itekaf for 20 days, and made a request to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala that these 20 nights of itekaf will be too much for my ummah, so then Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala made it the last 10 nights. But still Aqa sallallahu alaihi wa salam knew this would be difficult for his ummah, so Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala said ok, my beloved, the itekaf will remain 10 days, but will have to remain awake in 5 nights and search for the night of Power within those 5 nights. If Allah Willed He could have also revealed the magestic night but He Knows that whatever becomes easy for us we do not consider its importance, we do not value it. We only value those things which we get with great difficulty and we only value something when it is lost or when it is taken away from us. We can see this in our daily lives, for example, parents are alive today and children disobey them, they are disrespectful and they get angry when they are disciplined by their parents. They don’t value their parents because they don’t realise how much of a blessing they are. Just by looking at them and smiling one is awarded with Paradise; Paradise can be achieved so easily through them.

So we do not value those blessings of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala that are given to us so easily as much and we don’t appreciate them. Thus Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala disclosed this one night of sha’baan and kept one hidden within 5 nights. Now we can even observe from the two nights, how many people value the 15th night of sha’baan and how many people search for the night of Power. There is a difference of earth and sky and it is because one has been easily given and the other has been hidden; one has to make an effort to find the night of Power.

So Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala disclosed this night so his servants could pray, do extra ibadah, read tasbeehs, seek forgiveness and ask for rizq, pray for extension of your life, pray for emancipation from the Hell Fire in the akhirah, pray that your bad destiny is converted to good so that you may live a pious life. These are the prayers which should be sought on this night.

Hadhrat Maaz bin Jabal RA reports that Huzoor sallallahu alaihi wa salam said that there are 5 nights if spent in worship, will clear the way to Jannah. Among those nights one is the 15th of Sha’baan, whoever remains awake during this night in worship has made his path straight towards Jannah. Aqa sallallahu alaihi wa salam said, Jannah becomes wajib for such a person. It means these nights are so blessed, and there is such a great chance of acceptance, that if anyone seeks forgiveness with sincerity, even if the persons sins are equal to the water in the ocean, they will be forgiven and Jannah will become wajib for that person.

Hadhrat Abdullah bin Umar RA reports that Rasulullah sallallahu alaihi wa salam said, ‘there are five such nights in which prayers are not rejected. One is the thursday nights, Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala is so Merciful, He has bestowed this blessing upon us every week. Hadhrat Abdullah bin Umar RA used to hold a dhikr gathering every week on Thrusday nights, this is the practise of the blessed Sahabah RA and then after them, the taba’een did the same. They would arrange weekly mehfils to do dhikr, ibadah and istighfaar and this practise is still being done today. But today, people have made this day for wedding ceremonies, instead of sitting for dhikr and istighfaar, people are indulging in haraam activities, singing etc. Weddings have become too lavish, so many new customs and traditions are included as part of the wedding. So much money is spent on oil to burn and mehndi, but nowadays, instead of oil we are burning money. The amount of money spent on oil can pay for four weddings for the poor.

Aqa sallallahu alaihi wa salam told us about this night so that we could spend it in ibadah (worship) and seeking forgiveness.

Attish Baazi and lighting fireworks on this night is haraam, because this is not a night of expressing happiness like weddings. This is a night to refrain from sinning, a night to seek forgiveness and a night where one can easily attain Jannah.

Huzoor sallallahu alaihi wa salam said there are five nights on which the prayer is never denied, one of which is Thursday night and a greater night is the 15th of Sha’baan; shab-e-baraat. The others are in Rajab, Ramadhan and the eid days.

Huzoor sallallahu alaihi wa salam said, whoever repents sincerely on this night, Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala descends to the sky, straight at the time of maghrib when the sun begins to set. He comes close to His people and stays there till fajr. Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala says all night, ‘is there anyone who repents, so that I may forgive him?’, ‘Is there anyone who asks for rizq (livelihood), so that I may give him rizq’, ‘is there any questioner, that I may answer his questions?’. Whoever asks a question, seeks forgiveness, Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala answers him and forgives him. There are a few people who are not forgiven, they are not even forgiven on laylat-ul-qadr.

1. The mushrik, until he leaves shirk he is not forgiven.

2. Mashahim – (person who has jealousy and strong hatred for another in his/her heart). So that type of person will not be forgiven, not on this night (shab-e-baraat) nor laylat-ul-qadr, until his heart is free from this hatred and jealousy.

3. The third type of person who will not be forgiven is the murderer, until he repents sincerely and stops killing.

4. One who breaks off blood relations, it is apparant today that people do not fulfil the rights of their relatives and yet give sadqah in large amounts to far off places. They spend lavishly but do not even help to provide the basic necessities for their relatives. The rights of relatives are even greater than the rights of neighbours; relatives have the first right to zakah. So that person who breaks ties with relatives, will also not be forgiven.

5. One who wears their clothes with pride, the indication is towards pride, at the times of ignorance people used to drape their clothes below their feet and onto the land as a sign of pride. So the one who has pride will also not be forgiven until he is free from this.

6. The one who drinks alcohol will also not be forgiven.

7. The one who backbites.

So these are the types of people who are not forgiven even on those nights when Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala is guaranteeing forgiveness, so how will it be possible for such people to be forgiven throughout the normal days of the year? There is only one solution for these people to be forgiven and that is to leave their evil ways, make their lives pure from these things such as shirk, breaking off ties, murder, drinking alcohol, having pride and backbiting. If one is able to make themselves pure from these seven things then Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala says they will be forgiven.

Wazaif which buzurg adopt through the Sunnah of Rasulullah sallallahu alaihi wa salam:

1. Tilawat-e-Qur’aan-e-Paak (Recitation of Holy Qur’an): Surah Yaseen (minimum 3 times), Surah Ad-Dhukhaan (minimum 3 times), buzurg have said if it is not possible to recite the entire Surah then the first 8 ayahs 30 times is sufficient.

2. 100 – 1,000 times Dua of Hadhrat Yunus AS – Laa ilaha ila anta Subhanaka inni quntum min-az-zalimeen.

3. 100 times istighfaar – astaghfirullah-al-azeem alazi la illaha ila huwal hayyul qayyum wa atoobu ilaih

4. 100 times (minimum) of Durood Shareef – Allahumma saley ala Sayyidina wa Mowlana Muhammadin wa ‘ala aalihi wa sahbihi wa Barik wa Salim.

5. Salat-ut-Tasbeeh (4 nafl) and also 8 extra nafl rak’ats with niyyah of qiyyam-ul-layl

6. Halqa-e-dhikr (Do mehfil-e-naat first and then dhikr)

7. Dua (read in between nawafil, after salat-ut-tasbeeh and can even repeat on tasbeeh). This is the dua which Huzoor sallallahu alaihi wa salam told Ummul momineen Hadhrat Aisha RA for laylat-ul-qadr but buzurg have also said for sha’baan:

Allahumma inaka afuwwn kareemun tuhibbul afwa fa-fu’ani or this can be shortened to Allahumma inaka afuwan. (according to the hadeeth)

These are just some of the main points from the lecture entitled ‘Shab-e-Baraat ki Fazeelat aur Aadaab’ by his eminence Shaykh-ul-Islam Prof. Dr. Muhammad Tahir-ul-Qadri.

-last but not the least do remember me and my family in your prayers on this big night!!

Take Cares, Allah Nigh-e-Baan!
-Ayesha

Me n my studies..!

Asalaam o Alaikum All

Hmmmm Sister Asma made me open secrets and secrets by tagging me… Well like Sister Asma said in Tagging Post that I am kiddo, and I must be in matric.. So there’s no doubt many people must be thinking same… because I said I was in class 5th in 2000 so I must be a matriculate in 2005, but am done with 1st year (Inter) exams and studying for 2nd year…so many would be like What? Well the story is “ajeeb o ghareeb” the school where I had to repeat a class will allow jumping classes? It’s a big No No!!

So its like my schooling as always been an issue, I had to change 2 schools before my real school, first 2 were near our house and my mother was thinking just to give me a base so that I can move easily afterwards, but she was wrong : (, and I faced trouble.. but I adjusted well in both schools and in the last I was a best student, on the base of my good grades they gave me admission, I was in Safiyiah Girls High School (Near City Court, Karachi), every year I was securing position from 1st to 3rd then came the year 1999 and we were supposed to leave for India, it was the time when I was about to give my class 5th exams, but the treatment was important so we left for India and came back after 3 months, new batch was there, and my fellow classmates were in class 6th, we tried hard to get admission but as 5th is like base of secondary education so they didn’t took me and gave me admission in 5th, that was the time when I got totally fed-up with studies, how I studied 5th then 6th then 7th I don’t know, I didn’t secure any grade I took 5th position in class 5th & 6th and I was careless about everything and then in class 7th begging I skipped school for more than 1 month, teachers were calling me and I was like NO MORE STUDIES!!! The lose of one year made me burst out… a0nd I skipped 7th and 8th… then Salman’s tutor asked me to study 8th’s mathematics at home so I can study matric easily after that, I studied for 2 or 3 months then I goes like “no no no no no more studies!!!”, then wasting one whole year my family started motivating me (by giving LOTS of taunts like “you will be called illiterate”, “humey kia, tumhara future hai”) so finally I decided to study for 9th in last three months before exams and how it went just don’t ask, I was sure that I will get 2 or 3 “F”, and I told everyone if I get 1, 2 or any F then I wont study more.. and then came my result which told me that Ayesha you have been the most na-laiq girl on this earth, I got “C” and was told my family that I better study for Matric now… I studied for matric and got “C” again and this year I gave 1st year (Inter) exams and unlike 9th & 10th they went MashaAllah very great! And now expecting “B” : D heh!, well the repeat of 5th was to make my base it didn’t made my base but it took me away from studies, it took away my grades : ( it made me go lower not higher.. khair what ever happens, happens for a reason, right? So lets not mourn over the past and lets hope and work for present & future : ), Be Positive

Unlike others I haven’t enjoyed my school time, nor college’s, because I don’t go daily, its like once in a blue moon I go to college : p, am not interested to waste time going because teachers doesn’t take classes as they should (it’s a government college) and the environment there is “cheapest” so if anyone would ask anytime about my school or college it would be like “Better don’t ask”, khair I was sent to get education and my parents think that I have studied well even going through different troubles and phrases..

Best thing I love about me or my school or my college is that I have always secured best student place and obedient student place! And my teachers have always given me a place in their heart , even today I would love to go and meet my teachers specially my school teachers! And they love me a lot ! I do visit them twice or thrice every year : )! And they love the thing most about me is that I haven’t stopped studying : )! I have great influence of my teachers! They are sooo soooo ShweeeT!!!! I will always admire them !

I think this is enough : p

Take Cares, Allah Nigh-e-baan!