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Life has to move on…!

Ayesha — Fri, 06 Aug 2010 21:27:15 +0000

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal ~From a headstone in Ireland

I always used to get annoyed and irritated when dad were used to teach me how cheque book is filled, how telephone gets fix, how to get millions of things done…, I used to be so annoying and asked dad so many times that why you teaching me all this when you are there for everything and if you still want to teach then please teach Salman, am not a guy!

But his answer always stayed the same “you don’t know anything, just keep learning! you never know when all these things come handy”, with a bad mood I learnt everything…, I never knew the way of life he wanted me to adopt will come handy because he will be leaving this world so soon..

Soon after his death all the teaching came handy in all aspects of life…

I just can’t forget anything… anything related to dad.. whatever he taught was for my good… whatever I am today is because of him and mom…, friends say am very brave and strong…, my mom and dad made me strong… they backed me up every time for every little thing, my upbringing has been like a son… am grateful to you dad for everything you taught me… for everything you did for us… in short for EVERYTHING!

But there is one thing I learnt from dad and I don’t know when it gonna be coming handy to me… it was smoking ;d

Jokes apart dad…, I love you and miss you a lot may you stay at the highest rank of Jannah! *ameen*

-your annoying daughter

Another year has passed bhai..

Ayesha — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 21:40:34 +0000

Sometimes I really think on which loss should I cry and on which I shouldn’t…, 14th July 1998 was the date when you left us…, a very shocking news for all of us.., we can’t forget anything.. anything that has happened.., anything that was related to you.., today when I see Hammad and Ibrahim playing games I go back in time when you, Salman and I were the best buddies, we never needed anyone.., together we survived bad days, got equal love from maa and equal hard teaching from dad, that really helped us in life..

You did more than your age, you tried everything to bring just a single smile on mom’s face or our’s.., taught Salman a lot of things so that he can be independent like you.., I guess you did know about your departure, those teaching helped Salman and he did so many positive things! countless things I should say!

But wasn’t your presence enough for Allah? I guess no.. HE called dad after you.. another shock which didn’t just shock us but moved floor from under our feet.., it felt like we are sitting on the road with bare head and people pointing at us.., it was Salman’s presence’s which helped us after dad from people’s behavior..

But I guess Allah wanted more ‘naik‘ people for HIS heaven.. just when we were learning to live without dad HE called Salman… I don’t know on whose death should I shed my tears…, I have lost everything..

A brother like Nauman bhai, a friend like Salman, a teacher like dad.., I don’t know what else we are going to see.. but I don’t feel enough strength in me now..!

Prayers needed for both brothers and dad!

Yaad -e- Maazi. .

Ayesha — Fri, 27 Nov 2009 17:10:31 +0000

کتنی باتیں بھولیں؟ کتنی یاد رکھے؟ کیا کریں؟ کیا نہیں؟

کونسی چاند رات؟ کونسی عید؟ کونسا تہوار؟۔۔۔ لگتا ہے جیسے دل ہی مر گیا ہو۔۔

رات لیٹو تو وہ منظر آنکھوں کے سامنے سے ہٹتے نہیں۔۔، کچھ بھی بھلایا نہیں جاسکتا۔۔

ماں کو تسلی دیتے ہوئے کوشش ہوتی ہے میں نہ روؤں۔۔ پر رات ہوتے ہی۔۔ اکیلے میں خوب چیخ چیخ کر رونے کا دل کرتا ہے۔۔

پر پھر ۔۔ نہیں رو سکتی۔۔

دعا کریں مجھے سکون اور صبر آئے۔۔

یاد ماضی عذاب ہے یا رب، چھین لے مجھ سے حافظہ میرا۔۔۔