25th June (22nd Rajab) – dad’s death anniversary..

14th July – Nauman bhai’s death anniversary..

One after another.. I guess sometimes Allah wants to test us from every direction..

How badly I missed all of them on my nikkah can’t be described.., there were family members, friends, colleagues, everyone.. and I kept looking for dad and brothers in the crowd..

The things friends/family members did for my wedding should have been done by dad and brothers.. instead of uncle, dad should have been my wakeel for nikkah..

No complains.. no complains at all.. I just wish that dad and brothers keep praying for me and family.. and I know they all must be in heaven, enjoying the luxuries

Miss you three a lot =(

Mom and Daughter

Mothers are most of the kids best friend, I have a special bond with my mom, a very special bond…, my mom shares almost everything with me and I share everything with her, even our dark secrets are shared with each other.

If I get ill my mom doesn’t sleep all night, that was the time when I was use to think if God forbid anything happens to mom will I be able to stay awake all night? And I did achieve that place, we can never return the love, care our parents showed for us, but still we can try.

Since few months mom having diarrhea problem, whenever she is restless I stay awake all night and Alhamdulillah I doesn’t even feel tiredness, mom is bit shocked that how I manage to stay awake but I have told her ‘just like you stay awake for me’

Please remember my mom in your prayers, I have lost enough of my loved ones, can’t bear any other lose!

I always used to get annoyed and irritated when dad were used to teach me how cheque book is filled, how telephone gets fix, how to get millions of things done…, I used to be so annoying and asked dad so many times that why you teaching me all this when you are there for everything and if you still want to teach then please teach Salman, am not a guy!

But his answer always stayed the same “you don’t know anything, just keep learning! you  never know when all these things come handy”, with a bad mood I learnt everything…, I never knew the way of life he wanted me to adopt will come handy because he will be leaving this world so soon..

Soon after his death all the teaching came handy in all aspects of life…

I just can’t forget anything… anything related to dad.. whatever he taught was for my good… whatever I am today is because of him and mom…, friends say am very brave and strong…, my mom and dad made me strong… they backed me up every time for every little thing, my upbringing has been like a son… am grateful to you dad for everything you taught me… for everything you did for us… in short for EVERYTHING!

But there is one thing I learnt from dad and I don’t know when it gonna be coming handy to me… it was smoking ;d

Jokes apart dad…, I love you and miss you a lot may you stay at the highest rank of Jannah! *ameen*

-your annoying daughter

Had transfusion on Saturday, Nor mother nor sister had enough strong heart to accompany me for it, because it was in Agha Khan, where Salman was admitted for 9 days…, and I had to go alone

Which thing didn’t remind me of him? Everything, from small to big, everything, everyone remind me of him…, but have to live… this is what life is all about…, I want this world to end soon, I want to meet all my loved ones there, I want to go to the permanent world.

The same day nephew got hit by scooter, Shukar Alhamdulillah hit wasn’t that bad or big, just bit of swelling… but he was fainting, we rushed towards hospital, and the worst part, some roads were blocked because of some stupid rally, and there was bad traffic jam, we got stuck, decided to walk, walked for more than 30 minutes, finally we were on a road where we got transport and headed to hospital.

For GOD sake stop blocking road for your stupid rally’s, just imagine yourself in emergency, you get lots of traffic jam, you can’t even walk, people not giving enough space to move… just imagine!

I don’t know what else is there for us to see…

My already small family has got smaller…

I am looking for some help from you guys, to keep running the websites Salman was managing you can contribute by donating through Donate button on left side at www.thalassemia.com.pk -

-Ayesha