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Yaad-e-maazi..

Ayesha — Thu, 14 Jul 2011 05:14:15 +0000

24th June – Salman’s birthday..

25th June (22nd Rajab) – dad’s death anniversary..

14th July – Nauman bhai’s death anniversary..

One after another.. I guess sometimes Allah wants to test us from every direction..

How badly I missed all of them on my nikkah can’t be described.., there were family members, friends, colleagues, everyone.. and I kept looking for dad and brothers in the crowd..

The things friends/family members did for my wedding should have been done by dad and brothers.. instead of uncle, dad should have been my wakeel for nikkah..

No complains.. no complains at all.. I just wish that dad and brothers keep praying for me and family.. and I know they all must be in heaven, enjoying the luxuries

Miss you three a lot =(

FAiTh in TIF Magazine =)

Ayesha — Mon, 17 Jan 2011 13:08:51 +0000

Alhamdulillah FAiTh [Fight Against Thalassemia] is gaining its place in people’s life, heart, mind and now it secured its position in TIF [Thalassemia International Federation] Magazine

FAiTh featured in TIF Mag

Hamesha & forever….!

Ayesha — Thu, 16 Sep 2010 21:37:36 +0000

Hum hanse toh hansa haule se tera sara jahaan
Tu agar hai yahaan toh hai yeh agan bhi gulistaan
Saaya tere hum sabhi, rahe dil mein ab teri har baat bhi
Hamesha & forever, jab tak saanson ka saath hai
Hamesha & forever, jab tak taaron ki raat hai
Hamesha & forever, tab tak teri hi baat hai
Hamesha & forever dil mein tu

- missed terribly Salman on below mention lines, I couldn’t give him enough love and care Panda wants you back!

Pyaar main de na paaya utna tujhe jitna tera haqq tha
Thi yeh khata par hoti gayei, mera kaha mujhpe bas tha
Aansu tere, parchaye meri, kaise banoo teri yeh ab dawa
Hamesha & forever, jab tak saanson ka saath hai
Hamesha & forever, jab tak taaron ki raat hai
Hamesha & forever, tab tak teri hi baat hai
Hamesha & forever dil mein tu

Yaad mein itna rakhna ke na ho faasle, rehna lagg ke tum gale
Batla doongi main raasta, jab hongi raaste mein mushkilein
Akkhiyon se keh do roye na, inn aankhon mein bas khushiyan hi khilein
Hamesha & forever, jab tak saanson ka saath hai
Hamesha & forever, jab tak taaron ki raat hai
Hamesha & forever, tab tak teri hi baat hai
Hamesha & forever dil mein tu

Noor e Khuda…!

Ayesha — Sun, 15 Aug 2010 21:26:22 +0000

I don’t remember at what age I developed likeness for sad/slow songs but it was very young age, many of my friends used to make fun of me when I used to tell them I love to listen to Jagjit Sindh, Mehdi Hasan, slow and sad songs etc.

But nothing could change my love for them and today my song list only contains LOTS of slow/sad songs , when I miss Salman or dad a lot I listen to them hours and hours…, few days ago I heard Janay nahi de gen tujhe from movie 3 idiots, it badly reminded me of days when Salman was in hospital, I was trying every single thing to make him come back to life…, but real life is way different than movie

Last night I heard Noor e Khuda from movie My Name is Khan, it’s a wonderful track too.., I questioned Allah a lot of them when Salman was hospitalized, I wanted HIM to do some miracle.., I even said to many friends that doctors said that after 24 hours they will remove ventilator but Allah just need a second to make him come back to life… and am sure HE will do it…

I ain’t a lady of weak faith/belief, I have STRONG faith on Allah but I was very much upset when I heard that 1 second which I was waiting for didn’t come ever and a news came that Salman is no more with us…

I know Salman that you are in heavens and must be enjoying but Salman… your panda miss you a lot

Another year has passed bhai..

Ayesha — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 21:40:34 +0000

Sometimes I really think on which loss should I cry and on which I shouldn’t…, 14th July 1998 was the date when you left us…, a very shocking news for all of us.., we can’t forget anything.. anything that has happened.., anything that was related to you.., today when I see Hammad and Ibrahim playing games I go back in time when you, Salman and I were the best buddies, we never needed anyone.., together we survived bad days, got equal love from maa and equal hard teaching from dad, that really helped us in life..

You did more than your age, you tried everything to bring just a single smile on mom’s face or our’s.., taught Salman a lot of things so that he can be independent like you.., I guess you did know about your departure, those teaching helped Salman and he did so many positive things! countless things I should say!

But wasn’t your presence enough for Allah? I guess no.. HE called dad after you.. another shock which didn’t just shock us but moved floor from under our feet.., it felt like we are sitting on the road with bare head and people pointing at us.., it was Salman’s presence’s which helped us after dad from people’s behavior..

But I guess Allah wanted more ‘naik‘ people for HIS heaven.. just when we were learning to live without dad HE called Salman… I don’t know on whose death should I shed my tears…, I have lost everything..

A brother like Nauman bhai, a friend like Salman, a teacher like dad.., I don’t know what else we are going to see.. but I don’t feel enough strength in me now..!

Prayers needed for both brothers and dad!