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All about my dearest, caring, supporting and above all Loving and Sweetest family of mine!

Noor e Khuda…!

I don’t remember at what age I developed likeness for sad/slow songs but it was very young age, many of my friends used to make fun of me when I used to tell them I love to listen to Jagjit Sindh, Mehdi Hasan, slow and sad songs etc.

But nothing could change my love for them 🙂 and today my song list only contains LOTS of slow/sad songs :), when I miss Salman or dad a lot I listen to them hours and hours…, few days ago I heard Janay nahi de gen tujhe from movie 3 idiots, it badly reminded me of days when Salman was in hospital, I was trying every single thing to make him come back to life…, but real life is way different than movie 🙂

Last night I heard Noor e Khuda from movie My Name is Khan, it’s a wonderful track too.., I questioned Allah a lot of them when Salman was hospitalized, I wanted HIM to do some miracle.., I even said to many friends that doctors said that after 24 hours they will remove ventilator but Allah just need a second to make him come back to life… and am sure HE will do it…

I ain’t a lady of weak faith/belief, I have STRONG faith on Allah but I was very much upset when I heard that 1 second which I was waiting for didn’t come ever and a news came that Salman is no more with us…

I know Salman that you are in  heavens and must be enjoying but Salman… your panda miss you a lot 🙁

 

Life has to move on…!

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal ~From a headstone in Ireland

I always used to get annoyed and irritated when dad were used to teach me how cheque book is filled, how telephone gets fix, how to get millions of things done…, I used to be so annoying and asked dad so many times that why you teaching me all this when you are there for everything and if you still want to teach then please teach Salman, am not a guy!

But his answer always stayed the same “you don’t know anything, just keep learning! you  never know when all these things come handy”, with a bad mood I learnt everything…, I never knew the way of life he wanted me to adopt will come handy because he will be leaving this world so soon..

Soon after his death all the teaching came handy in all aspects of life…

I just can’t forget anything… anything related to dad.. whatever he taught was for my good… whatever I am today is because of him and mom…, friends say am very brave and strong…, my mom and dad made me strong… they backed me up every time for every little thing, my upbringing has been like a son… am grateful to you dad for everything you taught me… for everything you did for us… in short for EVERYTHING!

But there is one thing I learnt from dad and I don’t know when it gonna be coming handy to me… it was smoking ;d

Jokes apart dad…, I love you and miss you a lot 🙂 may you stay at the highest rank of Jannah! *ameen*

-your annoying daughter

Another year has passed bhai..

Sometimes I really think on which loss should I cry and on which I shouldn’t…, 14th July 1998 was the date when you left us…, a very shocking news for all of us.., we can’t forget anything.. anything that has happened.., anything that was related to you.., today when I see Hammad and Ibrahim playing games I go back in time when you, Salman and I were the best buddies, we never needed anyone.., together we survived bad days, got equal love from maa and equal hard teaching from dad, that really helped us in life..

You did more than your age, you tried everything to bring just a single smile on mom’s face or our’s.., taught Salman a lot of things so that he can be independent like you.., I guess you did know about your departure, those teaching helped Salman and he did so many positive things! countless things I should say!

But wasn’t your presence enough for Allah? I guess no.. HE called dad after you.. another shock which didn’t just shock us but moved floor from under our feet.., it felt like we are sitting on the road with bare head and people pointing at us.., it was Salman’s presence’s which helped us after dad from people’s behavior..

But I guess Allah wanted more ‘naik‘ people for HIS heaven.. just when we were learning to live without dad HE called Salman… I don’t know on whose death should I shed my tears…, I have lost everything..

A brother like Nauman bhai, a friend like Salman, a teacher like dad.., I don’t know what else we are going to see.. but I don’t feel enough strength in me now..!

Prayers needed for both brothers and dad!

Happy Birthday Salman

Dear Salman,

Friends, family everyone ask me to pray for you instead of crying and I agree to them.., I really agree to them, though you know Salman its not easy.. but since you are gone I am keeping me and mom busy.. so that we don’t cry.. and pray more for you.

Nothing can take away that pain, no one can replace you, nothing can change the reality.. no one can give you back to us now!

If you would have been here today.. we would have celebrated your 25th birthday with pizza, your favorite dishes, games, movies, what not? anything and everything you liked… but am sure.. you will be in heavens with your 70 virgins celebrating in the MOST BEAUTIFUL way we can even imagine :), Allah must have keep you in HIS beloved people.

I didn’t want to cry.. I didn’t by GOD!, but this email just made me..

The following is an e-mail from the past, composed on Saturday, June 24, 2006, and sent via FutureMe.org
Dear Me,
Happy Birthday to Me!

i hope i am still alive to read this mail,
i should have done atleast these few things:
i must have bought the dual monitors
wireless networking hogayee? and what about that wireless keyboard and mouse?
have i learned oracle yet?
did i crossed the 50k per month?
hmm.. and what about my car :sigh:

koi larki pasand ayee?
heh kia main bara hogaya?

chal filhaal keliye kafi hay

I don’t know why and when you wrote this email but you wanted to live to see this coming in your way…, but here I tell you Salman, that from the list of your wishes you did achieved some, like dual monitors 🙂 how badly you wanted them.. and I still remember the smile I saw on your face when I plugged both of your monitors 🙂 like a kid got a balloon for the first time 🙂

Wireless keyboard and mouse, remember you asked Fahad bhai to get it for you? though both couldn’t last long for much time but yes.. you loved them 🙂

50k? bhai.. you crossed 80k per month 🙂 we can’t forget how much you did for us, for family.. how can you :)? but am sure you would have.. because you were like that.. did and forgot..

There were millions of things you did in so little time and age.., but you gained your place and name in people’s heart.., family can’t forget you.. but am sure friends can’t too!

Happy Birthday once again 🙂

We love you and we miss you!

Enjoy the beauties of heaven 🙂 and don’t forget us!

Your weird and annoying sister
-Ayesha